Untitled And Proud Of It

I was selfish
And probably still am
The sun rose with your smile
Turning the dreams of the night
Into reality
I would not give up a minute
Of that reality for anything
Feelings that strong do not die
They are dealt with forever
I stand naked at the precipice
Letting the truth judge me
My life is circling behind me
Making me face my choices
Fate and destiny closing in quickly
Showing me my path
Sucking me in
I know my place
I accept what has been placed
On my shoulders
The city pulsates with life
Dragging me into the streets
The brooding blood of my corpse
Made into sport
The blood of the poet is splattered
Against the darkened buildings
Only to be wiped clean the next morning
As if nothing has happened

A Pack Of Wild Dogs

Surrounded by possessions
Reminding me of the transient nature of life
Can I really let go
Let the ripples of impact slowly subside
I have no choice
Death breathing down my neck
From a distance
Life surrounds me
Pulsating and soft
Angular and smooth
The ecstasy of dawn
Form rivaling perfection
I can not believe my eyes
How sad that the day must end
Does the beauty of sunset rival the beauty of youth
Can I reconcile the two
Or am I forever trapped in the middle
I struggle for an answer
Perhaps I will know when I stop struggling
And take life for what it is
A mystery that helps us learn
Sensation traps me too
I want more
Or maybe that is the problem
It might be better if a pack of wild dogs
Rip these thoughts to pieces
The blood is almost menstrual
Women pushing me towards the ledge
That I need to leap from without reason

Pride

The bond is still there
Maybe you know best
Calling the shots
Or is it me
Deciding how we play this game
Will insanity result from this logic
It takes two to tango
This dance is killing us
Liberating us
He gave me music
He gave me you
I am thankful
At the beginning we said it was a long process
You are at the nexus
I would want it no other way
Let us search for a path of unity
I think you know the way
Show me our direction
Trample our fiery doubts into oblivion
At times the pain is but a shadow
Compared to the joy you have given me
You rose from depression like a phoenix
Shattering the walls of hopelessness
The colors are brighter in the sunlight of your smile
Your wheels are burning through my soul
Help me find the answer to my destiny
I have a feeling you might know
What art and love have forged together
Is smoldering in your pride

More Pain Than Most Would Want To Know

If beauty could be understood
Its mysteries would cease to fascinate
There is a time and place for communion
I thought I was a ship lost at sea
The physical world started to elude me
I started delving into your spirit
Where I found lush gardens
Of love and virtue
The vision almost eclipsed your physical beauty
Your heart is as sublime as your smile
I did not think you cared about me any longer
Not seeing the forest for the trees
I could not see your feelings for my selfishness
It seems ridiculous now
When the blind can see
It seems simple
Open your eyes and behold
Joyous wonders
The softness of body and soul
Forever entwined
I thought the ties that bind were slashed
They have bound us all along
I am home
And always have been
I will journey into the inner mind
To find peace
But the journey will encompass pain
More pain than most would want to know
In this world

The Same Streets...The Same Games

I guess we walked
the same streets
I wonder if they were
much different then
Probably not
Driving around here
hasn't changed much
either
But it's only been
five years
It keeps getting more
crowded
That's all
People don't change
that much
They play the same
games
Win or lose
do I
care
Does it bother
me

Dedicated to Bukowski.